Addiction cycled Tyler Little in and out of the Summit County Jail, but he walked out with his GED
April 20, 2018
Meth is a greedy drug. It took his mother from him when he was 15, and it came clawing after him next, offering release from his grief.
Along the way, it would try to take everything else he had. His education. His home. His freedom. His self respect.
But meth doesn't always get what it wants.
On Thursday afternoon, Tyler Little, still a prisoner at the Summit County Jail, swapped his forest green inmate uniform for a cap and gown, and in the patrol room of the Summit County Sheriff's Office, he accepted a framed copy of his general education degree.
“Some of these guys end up in a hamster wheel in our jail and can’t find a way out. Then they get in more trouble while they’re in the jail, and the cycle continues.”Jamie FitzSimonsSummit County Sheriff
With it, he took back his self-worth, his ambition and the horizons of a future that had been narrowed to a point — the next high or place to crash or brush with the law.
"Now I don't think about what it means if I go back, I think about why I'm not going back," Little said before a small crowd of sheriffs' office personnel and members of local churches.
Tears welling in his eyes, Little thanked the people who had aided his improbable escape from the swirling drain of America's criminal justice system, which swallows untold thousands of the mentally ill and addicted.
Little has been circling around that drain since his teenage years, long before he came to Summit County.
One can hardly blame him.
Little is 6-foot-3 with a thick frame and firm handshake to match. From Texas by way of Arkansas, he has a slight drawl, and he calls everyone "sir" or "ma'am."
He wasn't so polite when he first came to the jail.
Off his medication and coming down off multiple drugs, Little suffered a perceived slight during meal time and threw a coffee pot through an interior window, shattering it to pieces.
"I was chemically imbalanced," he said during an interview at the jail the day before Thursday's ceremony. "I just flipped out. I didn't expect the window to break."
Little has been in and out of the Summit County Jail five times since July, when he was arrested after stealing a bike in Breckenridge. He's no stranger to handcuffs.
Little was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at age 12, just three years before addiction caught up with his mother. He started using the next year. He never knew his father.
"That goodness you feel at the first few hits is a lie, because soon it will start taking things from you, and you sacrifice everything in your life to stay high," Little said.
Meth was always Little's drug of choice, but it made his illness worse. It led to more bad people, more bad decisions and a predictable pattern of petty criminality.
A nine-month stint in juvenile corrections for burglary derailed his schooling, and he dropped out in ninth grade.
From there, he led a meandering life of drug use, homelessness and odd jobs. Last summer, after a nine-month clean stretch in Conroe, Texas, he decided to move to Alaska, where he would build a house and live off the grid. He needed to get away from the dead-end meth houses.
He stopped in Breckenridge, impressed by the mountains. The summer construction season was in full swing, and there was plenty of work to be had.
But meth can lurk anywhere. It found him here.
"I was disappointed in myself," he said, his gaze drawing downward as he fiddled with a bright orange jail slipper. "I thought a new place would help."
ESCAPING THE 'hamster WHEEL'
During his morning walk through the jail on Christmas Eve, Sheriff Jaime FitzSimons stopped at a familiar sight in Holding 1, a padded cell for crisis inmates.
He recognized Little through the window. He had been released just four days earlier.
"I couldn't for the life of me understand why he was back in jail," FitzSimons recalled. "I wanted to know why."
Many American jails function as warehouses for the mentally ill and addicted, whose ailments snare them in a cycle of low-level offenses.
Little's latest arrest was for being drunk, a probation violation.
"Some of these guys end up in a hamster wheel in our jail and can't find a way out," FitzSimons explained. "Then they get in more trouble while they're in the jail, and the cycle continues."
FitzSimons was tired of seeing Little locked up. They had a heart-to-heart through the glass window of the holding cell door.
"I told him, 'I will help you, but you need to get off suicide watch, talk to Mind Springs and get on your meds,'" FitzSimons said. "You don't belong in this jail."
Little started taking GED classes and asked his instructor if it would be possible to earn his degree while incarcerated.
"She said, 'It is possible. It will take a lot of work, but it is possible,'" Little recalled.
His posture straightened as he explained the structure of his studies. Four sections: language arts, social studies, math and science, his favorite.
He completed at least one lesson per day on weekdays, sometimes two. On weekends, he read for pleasure — Christopher Paolini's Inheritance Cycle series or anything by Stephen King.
"There were a couple false starts," FitzSimons said. "I had my doubts. But he studied hard."
In the meantime, Little took addiction courses offered by Pastor Rick Backlund of the Agape Outpost. He also got some help from Father Dyer United Methodist Church in Breckenridge, which agreed to cover the $150 fee for his GED test.
On April 14, he passed. It was his first academic achievement in nearly a decade.
"I felt like I finally did something positive with my life instead of tearing something up," Little said. "I finally kept with something long enough to make progress with my life."
RESETTING THE CLOCK
Time closes in on people addicted to meth. Amidst the drug-induced reverie, the future is a narrow tunnel leading only to more highs.
"Everything is short-term," Little said. "It's where you're going to wake up — if you even go to sleep. Today and tomorrow might run together, and tomorrow and the next week might run together. You lose a lot of time."
Not anymore. Now, Little has his GED. He has plans, pride and hope.
"At this point in my life I'm focusing on repairing and planning for the future, which is something I didn't do before," he said.
He decided to move into Agape's sober living house, which has also lined up a job for him, after his scheduled release on Saturday.
After saving enough money, he plans to go back to Arkansas, buy some land and build a house. He wants to help out his sister-in-law there, who has been raising seven kids on her own since Little's older brother went to prison.
"I want to build something for them that I can share with them and leave behind for them," he said.
On Thursday, he got a small head start on those plans. After the ceremony, FitzSimons had a final surprise for Little: an order from Judge Ed Casias.
"The court congratulates Mr. Little on his GED performance," FitzSimons read. "The Court will authorize Mr. Little to be released today."
Little was overcome. In his cap and gown, he gave the sheriff a bear hug. His former guards joined in the clapping.
"It was tough pulling your leg all morning," one quipped.
Then it was time for cake. Little served his guests.
"My mom taught me that you always cut everyone else a piece before you take yours."
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