20-year-old gives Greeley city councilwoman a life-saving gift
July 10, 2017
On her way back from a Weld County Airport Authority meeting, with the familiar weariness already digging in for the night, Sandi Elder called Layne Pachl in tears.
Ever since Layne came to Sandi's house and announced that she would give Sandi a kidney, the two talked every night, after Sandi hooked herself up to her dialysis machine in her bedroom. This conversation couldn't wait for the machine.
"The devil's been talking to me," Sandi said.
Sandi, 54, met Layne on a rainy May 17 afternoon, when Layne came to her house to introduce herself as her donor. Layne wanted the introduction to be special, so she hid her face with the umbrella and tried not to look at all the people peering out of the front window. Layne and Tamara, her mother, came through the door and shook off the storm, and Layne lowered her umbrella to reveal her cute and smiling face. Sandi looked at her and said, "You're a nut."
“We will worry about her the rest of her life,” Willie said, “like one of our own.
— Willie Elder, about Layne Pachl after the transplant surgery
Recommended Stories For You
Layne, 20, knew Sandi only because she was a friendly face in the office when she attended St. Mary Catholic School at a kid, but she immediately reminded Sandi of her daughter-in-law, Niki, because both were young and sweet. It didn't take Sandi long to love Layne just as much. Because of that, Sandi began to have serious reservations about the operation.
Layne was not yet old enough to buy a beer. She still lived at home with her parents in rural Greeley in between semesters at the University of Colorado-Colorado Springs. Her only surgery was a procedure to fix a torn ACL last year.
Now Sandi thought of her as a daughter, not a lifesaver. Sandi couldn't let her do it.
And yet, Sandi needed Layne's gift. Sandi was born with polycystic kidney disease. Healthy kidneys are the size of a fist. Sandi's were 10 pounds each. The disease causes nausea, pain, vomiting, urinary tract infections and an evil, wearing fatigue.
The disease did all that to her, too, but it also stole so much of her life.
It tore a chunk out of her perky personality. That trait not only made her husband of 35 years, Willie, love her, it helped make her a beloved city councilwoman for almost eight years.
The disease changed her complexion into a faint, sickly yellow, which she tried to cover up with pounds of makeup.
The worst part of it all was she once had the kind of energy that made people wonder where she got it. She hated to sit still, and her constituents loved her for that, even if it sometimes frustrated Willie. She hated it even more that the disease made her want to sit still. She and Willie loved to go out, to Friday Fests and Stampede rodeos, but she had no strength for that anymore.
The disease even kept her from being a close friend: Her companions wouldn't share their own problems because they believed they couldn't measure up to Sandi's ordeal. She hated that too.
Sandi didn't want people to pity her, so she tried to keep her ordeal private, but in 2016, she started a Facebook Page, Sandi Needs A Hero, after her search for a donor dragged on for years. There were heartbreaking close calls, such as the time the Weld County Sheriff Steve Reams lost 20 pounds at the doctors' request, only to be turned down on the last test.
She turned to Facebook because she was desperate: She hooked up to the dialysis machine every night since August. Dialysis was a crappy, uncomfortable solution, but it kept her alive. It also moved her down the crowded donor list.
Layne's kidney was a godsend.
Layne, as she had every time Sandi expressed her doubts, told her the devil was whispering these bad thoughts. Layne felt a calling, she said, that even her father, Robert, struggled to understand. She wanted to do it. She already felt close to Sandi and her family as well. She even considered it a privilege to feel what she called a tingle.
"Let's pray," Layne told her.
That helped soothe Sandi's fears, until a few days later, on Memorial Day, two days before the surgery, when Niki and Sandi's son, Eric, held a party for their families and friends. There were many good speeches, and there was a cake and some masks of Layne's face. Sandi called Layne her hero.
Later, surrounded by the celebration, as she signed a photo of the two of them, Sandi broke down again.
"I know what that pain feels like," Sandi said and sobbed, "and I don't want her to feel that. I don't want her to suffer."
Here's the ironic thing about gifts: The more precious they are, the harder they are to accept.
Layne is a bit of a daredevil. Fearless, Tamara says about her. She'd been skydiving 30 times. She's exactly the kind of person who would agree to give an organ because it's a nice thing to do. Layne is a good kid, Tamara and Robert said, but fearless kids are hard to parent regardless of whether their hearts are in the right place.
They thought the complicated tests potential donors undergo would solve this issue for them. After all, those tests are there to ensure that the kidney is a good match, but they're also there to ensure that daredevils don't do anything on a whim.
With that in mind, Tamara and Robert stood by while Layne decided to get tested after hearing about Sandi's story. The odds were so small that she would be a match anyway. Dozens of others had already tried.
Layne gave almost a dozen tubes of blood, and she took a 24-hour pee test, when she had to potty into a jug that she kept in the fridge. Initially, she was a match. She gave more blood to bring her count to 40 tubes, and she underwent a CT scan to make sure the kidney wasn't in a place that was hard to reach. She passed all the hurdles. All systems go. It's rare to have someone so young give an organ, and even less so for someone who isn't a family member. And yet, Layne told her parents their only child between them would be donating a kidney.
Now, as parents, they had to decide how they felt about their child allowing doctors to cut her open and take an organ.
Tamara had what she called a "what the hell Mom moment" — she basically wanted to lock Layne in her room — but she also wondered if she would have the courage and selflessness to give an organ when she was 20, and she felt proud of her daughter.
As soon as he heard the news, Robert tried to talk her out of it.
"Of course I did," he said.
He asked her about health insurance and whether it would be more expensive for her, and whether she wanted to volunteer for that much pain, and why someone so young would want to give up something so precious with so much life ahead of them. Doctors struggle with that too: Many prefer middle-aged donors because the odds are lower, simply because of the years they've lived, that they will develop a debilitating condition.
Layne was sweet but stubborn. She went skydiving the first time because Robert told her she shouldn't do it. As always, she had good answers to his questions.
Why are you giving up one kidney? Well, Layne replied, that's why you have two.
How come God gave you two? Well, Layne replied, to give up one to someone who really needed it.
What about your health? Well, Layne replied, many donors live a healthier lifestyle than those with two. There's more motivation for them to watch their diet, curb their vices and exercise. She had a reason not to party now. What father wouldn't want to hear that?
And if she was healthier than the average person, health insurance shouldn't be more expensive. Sandi's insurance would cover the costs of her own operation. Health insurance companies prefer to pay for an operation: Dialysis, after all, is much more expensive.
Then Robert knew he had a choice. He could try to forbid his daughter from doing it. He could stomp and yell and put his foot down. Or he could be supportive.
"He never tries to talk me out of things," Layne said, even as Robert admitted he did. "He just questions me hard. He's a great dad. I mean, I'd be worried and scared if I had parents who were, like, 'Oh, cool.'"
When he was supportive, Robert, like Tamara, then felt proud. He allowed himself to be comforted by the stringent process. She had to pass so many tests, and even more than that, he went with her to a required session with a psychologist, who grilled her pretty hard about her motivations. Layne called it a God thing because everything had gone so smooth, but she was also excited to give Sandi a new chance. Yes, she was sure she wanted to do it. She grew to enjoy the questions from everyone: She needed to hear herself say it, over and over. Yes, she was sure she wanted to do it.
She was sure, that is, until the night before, when the devil began to whisper to her.
The night before the surgery, on May 31, Sandi and Willie took their 1940 Chevy Truck out for a spin. Willie rebuilt it from a shell. The truck is the couple's porch swing, a way to relax over good memories. Sandi's Facebook cover photo is a picture of the two of them in it. They decided to go to Fuzzy's Tacos for dinner. Willie had a margarita.
Tamara and Robert tried to stay busy to take their minds off the next morning's surgery and hoped they would eventually just collapse from exhaustion. That's how Robert found himself on his lawn mower tractor at 10 p.m., cutting the grass in his rural Greeley neighborhood, where the lot is big enough for a few horses for Layne to ride. They then went to bed and, against all odds, actually slept a bit, before Tamara awoke with a start at 2 a.m., a couple hours before they had to leave. They were blissfully unaware of the struggle Layne was facing.
At midnight, in a hotel room near the University of Colorado Hospital in Aurora, with her boyfriend, Corbin, after a dinner of crackers, Layne was exhausted by all the concern, even if she was also touched by it. She had been asked three questions approximately 10 billion times: Are you ready? How do you feel? Are you nervous? She began to cry.
"What if I wake up in a coma?" Layne said to Corbin.
Six hours before she was supposed to arrive at the hospital, Layne wondered if she wanted to go through with it.
The sad truth is, two people wake up from a kidney transplant. Both of them are in pain, to be sure, but one almost always feels better than she has in years, and the other may very well wake up in more pain than she's ever felt in her life. That would almost certainly be true for Layne. Layne was tough. She played volleyball at Valley High School, a storied, state-winning program with high demands, and flourished there. She once played through a strained back until doctors informed that it was, in fact, fractured. But she had little experience with surgery. She cried at the unknown of what removing a kidney would bring.
That night, over his margarita and the customers wolfing down shrimp tacos, Willie told Sandi in Fuzzy's her guilt was understandable. He had it, too. He worried, in fact, she would regret the operation in a decade. But Sandi now had to be OK with Layne's choice. She couldn't let Layne's pain prevent her from celebrating her own recovery.
They would worry, a lot, about as much as her parents, but they would accept Layne's gift. They didn't know that Layne was wondering if she wanted to give it.
Layne sobbed on Corbin's shoulder until he reminded her about that Christmas in the New Life Church in Colorado Springs.
Layne didn't have any relationship with God a couple years ago. Robert was raised Catholic, and Tamara converted for him. It didn't bother her parents that she wasn't Catholic — Tamara said she loves experimenting with religion — but they wanted her to have some connection. Layne peeked into Hinduism until Corbin's father, a pastor, brought them both to New Life, and they cried through the service. Since then, she said, she's been "chasing, chasing, chasing God."
Corbin told Layne that they didn't know what God's plan was, but it seemed like they'd followed it pretty closely so far. Everything had gone so smooth. It would be a shame to not trust Him now. Layne cried a few more minutes, dried her tears and fell asleep. She would sleep soundly until 4 a.m., when she awoke with the same start that jolted her mother a couple hours earlier. It was time to go.
Layne told herself that she'd made it through her doubts. She really just needed to cry them out. She was due for a freak-out moment.
She thought about her parents, and Corbin, who was hours into his promise to quit smoking because she was giving something up as well, and Sandi and her family. Everyone was probably having their own freak-out now.
She would have to be in good spirits for them.
Willie shoves the curtain separating the two hospital beds to the right.
"Hiiiiiii," Layne says.
It is 7 a.m. on May 31, just minutes before surgery at the University of Colorado Hospital in Aurora. Sandi and Layne pray together.
Then the anesthesiologist walks in to go over the procedure. A nurse sets a box of Kleenex by Tamara's feet.
The doctor looks at Layne, not her parents, and after a talk, she asks Layne a question. Do you want us to use live-saving measures to bring you back if something goes wrong?
"My heart just started pounding," Tamara says, gripping Robert's arm. Corbin fidgets in a chair.
Layne eyes get big, and she goes quiet.
"Um, yes," Layne says.
As they prepare to wheel Layne away, Willie stares at her with disbelief and concern but doesn't say anything. Layne glances over at Sandi, and Sandi mouths two words.
Her parents say goodbye, but they do not cry. Layne seems relaxed again.
"She makes it so easy," Robert says.
Then they wish Sandi luck and go for a walk.
Layne feels calm in the operating room, though she hears beeping, and when she realizes that beeping is her heartbeat, it starts beeping faster. She looks at all the instruments they're going to use on her with curiosity. Her anesthesiologist tells her to stop looking at those and encourages her to think about a cruise and relaxing on the beach with Corbin. Layne smiles because last time, during her ACL surgery, she was supposed to think about Ryan Gosling, and she woke up crying.
She goes to sleep, and Dr. Tom Bach goes to work on her.
Sandi hears the same speech and wipes away a tear. Surgery is scary regardless of whether it will save your life or not. Willie gives her a kiss, Eric a hug, and Niki weeps into Sandi's nightgown. Sandi's oldest sister, Dolores Garcia, walks down the hallway with her. The moment Sandi's been praying for, dreaming about and crying over is here.
Dr. Trevor Nydam sits at a table and works on Layne's kidney. He strips away fatty tissue while it waits on ice for its new home. Guns 'N' Roses plays, and at different times, both Nydam and Bach do a rough but passable imitation of Axl Rose. Bach prefers Rush, but this will do.
"The kidney looks great, Tom," Nydam said.
The mood is serious but light, partly because they've done this many times, and partly because a kidney transplant is one of the best moves doctors can make in all of medicine, Nydam said later in an interview.
He took the Hippocratic oath, and part of that oath says "first, do no harm," and that can weigh on his mind occasionally because a donation is, technically, breaking that oath. They're putting a healthy person such as Layne through surgery for someone else. It's a difficult equation, Nydam said. But the benefits to the recipient are so huge they outweigh that equation. They even render it moot.
At 9:40 a.m., they take the kidney into Sandi's room. It's silent. It feels like a moment of reverence. It is a big moment. There's some pressure there, Nydam said, because the donor has just given up an incredible gift, at some significant cost, and the worst thing would be for them to do something to screw that up.
There's a long apprenticeship for transplant surgeries, Nydam said.
"It takes some guts to do the first few cases," he said. "You won't let your average surgeon do it. You have to be able to handle the gravity of it."
An assistant announces that the kidney is going in. Nydam flashes his wrists around a bit.
Less than a minute later, with Layne's kidney safely tucked away in its new home, the music starts playing. "Keep Moving On" by the Nelson Brothers kicks things off. In a few minutes, the kidney starts peeing, as doctors put it, even before he hooks it up to Sandi's bladder.
A kidney from a cadaver can take up to a week to start working, but because this is Layne's kidney, and Layne is a healthy, young lady, it starts working in less than 15 minutes.
Less than an hour later, in her recovery bin, Layne opens her eyes.
"Where have you been?" she says to Corbin and her parents.
She asks for her mother's hand. It's soft and warm.
"I'm sorry I keep falling asleep," she mumbles.
Tamara and Robert, together, let out a deep breath. They relax, probably for the first time in days. They know now she will heal. They laugh, because they can, when they hear the doctors were listening to Guns 'N' Roses. Robert asks about the song.
When he receives the answer, he looks over his daughter, who, thank goodness, is back asleep.
"Sweet Child O' Mine," he says. "What a perfect song."
Sandi wakes up howling.
As soon as her nurse walks in to her room, Sandi calls her pain a 10 out of 10. She would later describe the feeling as a big monster squeezing her insides, punching her in the stomach and stepping on her guts. She would also later say the anesthesia lowered her defenses, leaving her unable to cope with pain she would normally try to pray through.
Willie, of course, is worried about her, but he also seems self conscious about her suffering. He knows Sandi's tough. She hid her years of misery from the disease well. She greeted Willie at the door with a tea every night when he returned from a job as a handyman. She insisted her daughter, Samantha Brown, bring over the grandchildren, aged 5 and 7, so she could watch them. She went to most meetings, even the mundane ones, like the airport authority, and she overprepared for city council meetings by reading her entire packet, even the boring stuff. But he struggles to understand her suffering when Layne is also suffering specifically to save Sandi's life. Despite Willie's warning over tacos the night before, he's still feeling the kind of guilt that's common among family members over the donor's pain. He also worries more about complications from Layne's surgery than Sandi's. Sandi needs the operation and therefore must accept the risk.
"Layne's surgery was worse," Willie says.
This, however, isn't fatigue. It's pain, and even if Sandi prayed for the surgery that's causing it for years, it hurts a lot. It takes a couple hours to get the pain under control.
Still, Willie and Eric and the rest of the Elders are nearly as relieved as Layne's posse, now that both surgeries went well, and there's a joy there, as well. In fact, with some glee, they talk about how Sandi's already produced a bag-and-a-half of urine through her catheter, or 1,400 ccs, to be exact.
A kidney transplant has to be one of the few occasions where family members can talk openly about their loved one's bodily functions with pride without mortifying the patient. All that urine, after all, means Sandi now has a thriving, healthy kidney.
Layne seemed to be OK when she woke up, but later that afternoon, the strong pain meds make her ill. She burps some, then pukes a little, and then a lot. She throws up, off and on, for a few hours. Her parents, after being so relieved earlier, feel helpless. They picture Layne's abs held together with glue and tape and stitches, and their daughter, their poor thing, as Tamara calls her at her side, can't stop throwing up. Doctors scrap the narcotics and give her a patch for her nausea.
Though she had a rough start, Sandi's reaction to the narcotics is much different. She feels AWESOME. She's texting people and sitting up, and when she sees a commercial for Shark Week on the Discovery Channel set to "Kiss By A Rose," and the voiceover says something about how it's a bad week to be a seal, she laughs hard enough for it to hurt. It hurts a lot actually.
Yes, it's the pills, but it's also Layne's kidney. She hasn't felt this good in years.
The morning after the surgery, Layne takes her first walk. She has a goal: Make it to Sandi's room. When she gets there, she wants Sandi to walk with her, but Sandi isn't up for it yet. They're both sore. Layne, the athlete, says her abs feel as if she just did 10,000 sit-ups.
There's a checklist they have to pass before they're allowed to go home. They have to free themselves from their catheters and their IVs (with the nurses' help) and eat and drink, and then they have to prove their kidneys work, which probably requires no explanation. Layne is ready. She asks for prune juice.
That afternoon, in her room, Layne looks up from her bed and smiles.
Sandi is there to visit her.
The next morning, Layne walks back to Sandi's room and is stunned by what she sees. Sandi's in a cute dress, clean and happy.
Who said Sandi could have a shower?
When Layne finds out she, too, can have a shower, her first in three days, she bolts back to her room — as fast as she can, anyway — and gently demands the nurse unhook her IV. Then she steps into the shower. It feels wonderful.
Layne is stomaching her pain meds, and she pooped (sorry, but it's important), and now she's off the IV umbilical cord. Doctors tell her she can go home. The news thrills her parents, and Layne has plans to make a smoothie and binge-watch "The Bachelorette." But she doesn't want to leave Sandi. She had hopes they would walk out of the hospital together.
Sandi admits to herself she will miss her. Layne gave her a reason to walk down the hallway. She was the only one who knew exactly what she was feeling, and she loved posing for selfies together in their hospital gowns.
But it's also an incredible relief Layne is going home. Even the thought of a complication brings Sandi to tears. It appears now Layne has already dodged many of the worst-case scenarios.
Go home, sweet child, Sandi says to Layne.
Sandi has high hopes of going home the next day, but her white blood count is too low. This bums her out. She hasn't slept well in the hospital, and she's sick of the late-night television. She nearly buys a Cindy Crawford product that supposedly reduces crows feet around the eyes. She misses Dexter, her little white rescue poodle mix Willie got her to sit with her during dialysis, and she misses her own bed. She misses Willie and her grandkids. She is sad and lonely in her room.
Her phone rings at 10 p.m.
"Heyyyy," the voice says.
What do you get the person who saved your life? Sandi and Willie have given that a lot of thought.
Layne didn't do it for that, of course, but that makes Sandi want to do something for her even more.
Once she got home, Layne had a couple hard days, highlighted by running to the bathroom to puke in the grocery store with her mom. She had to nap three times a day, and she was frustrated because she wasn't allowed to lift anything more than 10 pounds, which included her black cat, Sterling. She was surprised at how simple stuff, like getting into bed, really hurt, and the fact her painkillers were Oxycontin — THE Oxycontin, as Tamara put it — kind of freaked out her parents.
But after a week, she was off those painkillers and giving Mary Kay facial parties. She spent her past summers at volleyball camps and working on a bikini competition and skydiving, but it's nice to chill out at home this summer. She doesn't have any urge to skydive any longer. There are things she wants to do with her life. She hopes, one day, to work with the American Transplant Association to help other donors. She eventually hopes to earn her doctorate in psychology. She wants to counsel patients, especially cancer patients, in her own private practice. She has a knack, it seems, for helping people through the worst times of their life.
The gift Layne gave her is even greater than Sandi thought.
Sandi doesn't have to use as much makeup any longer to cover up her skin. She looks healthy. Glowing, in fact, Niki said, when she and Eric had them over for dinner. Willie insisted, often, she was still the most beautiful woman he's ever seen. Now she believes him again.
Speaking of dinner, she can eat whatever she wants now. Meat made her sick. Now she can't wait to eat steak, which thrills Willie, who rebuilds grills out of old cars. She can drink as much water as she wants, and doctors insist she drink a lot. She was always thirsty, here in arid Colorado, because she had to sip small doses. Now she can chug. She's peed a lot in the past few days (sorry, but it's important). One of the best days was when they took her dialysis machine, and 13 cases of fluid, out of her bedroom and out of her home and away from her life.
She still has pills to take. Nine bottles worth, if you're counting, including one that prevents a stomach ulcer from the others. Willie numbered them for her in her thick guidebook to her kidney, which is bigger and fatter than an owner's manual to a new car.
She still gets tired, and she still needs naps, but her energy is back. She wants to get new walking shoes and start getting out every day. She has thoughts about taking her grandsons out on the Poudre Trail. She goes out into the yard and cleans the patio or pulls weeds until Willie shoos her away. She worries Willie, who will turn 60 this year and suddenly feels old.
"She wants to experience all this stuff now," he said and laughed. "I don't know if I can keep up with her."
Other than the additional years on her life, and the quality the new kidney brings, perhaps the greatest gift, her family members say, is eliminating that low-grade hum of worry that hung over them. One of the reasons Sandi insisted on taking care of her grandchildren, even when she was exhausted most of the time, was because she wanted them to remember her when she was gone.
Donors almost always recover, said Dr. Nydam, her transplant surgeon, and donations almost always work. It takes about two weeks for donors to fully recover, and many times, after a month, they forget they had the operation, save for the scar, which Layne wants to keep. Still, Sandi knows Layne went through an ordeal for her.
What do you do for someone who gave you something like that?
Well, Layne is an only child who doesn't have much family around. When she was asked before the surgery why she wanted to give Sandi a kidney, specifically Sandi, Layne smiled and called her a good role model.
Maybe you start with your nightly phone calls, only now they talk when Sandi's watching TV, not hooked up to a machine.
Maybe you continue with Eric and Niki, who are pretty close in her age. They could be cousins. They had her over for fajitas the other night.
Maybe, if you're Sandi, you ask Layne to coffee, or over to her house, and the two of you sit and chat about Layne's boyfriend. Maybe you rave about a new hairstyle when Layne sends you a picture of it. Maybe you sit and listen and nod, slightly, when Layne says her parents are getting in her business, which is what every college student says in between semesters.
Maybe you tell her to text you when she gets home from an outing.
"We will worry about her the rest of her life," Willie said, "like one of our own."
Maybe when Layne tells you to be active, you listen, and maybe when she says you've got a 20-year-old kidney to help you, you laugh.
Maybe you can be family. Maybe you can be an older sister, or a mother figure, or perhaps the cool aunt, the one who makes everyone wonder just where she gets all that energy.
— Staff writer Dan England is The Tribune's Features Editor. Call (970) 392-4418 or e-mail firstname.lastname@example.org. Follow him on Twitter @ DanEngland.
Trending In: Regional
- Frisco Flight For Life widow featured in campaign ad for Jared Polis touting helicopter safety
- Mountain Town News: When smoke gets in your eyes — and in your lungs
- Discovery Channel’s ‘Gold Rush’ is leaving Park County, but residents continue to fight for more mining oversight
- Colorado gem hunters are back near Alma mine that was once a mother lode of rhodochrosite, the official state mineral
- Colorado’s Constitutional conundrum: Gallagher vs. TABOR amendments, and what it means for us
- Breckenridge updates rules for short-term rentals amid firestorm of protests
- UPDATE: 43-year-old Pennsylvania woman killed in 150-foot fall on Mount Royal
- Drug dealer gets 5 years for selling fatal dose of Fentanyl
- Mountain Lyon Cafe in Silverthorne will migrate a few blocks this fall
- Silverthorne resident comes to rescue of choking man